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Friday, November 20, 2009
Is me is just me,why am i always been pressure by all those people out there??? Why must be me???i'm just like you guys trying to fit in this world bt why cant u people accpect it???? Whats wrong with me??? Am i An alien???Animal???OR what??? Just say it Whats wrong with me???? I too have feelings like you people i just 1na have a normal life n etc. I knw some people look dwn of me i understand why... Haiz,sometimes i feel so confused,lost,stress dont knw wat to do next. Sometimes i feel i dont need to be in this world coz im just wasting my time in this world knwin people lookin dwn on me n etc. Even if i cry who would be there for me???Who??? I knw i have a Gf bt i cnt always depands on her to me cause she has her probs too. She is the most valuable gf i ever had even how much we gone throught i still hold tight for us coz i love her.Is alreadi been 1yr n 3mths n still have a long way to go n is my fault 2 makin her stress always sometimes i feel tat im the worst bf she ever had coz i feel stupid about myself. I try so hard to understand her bt just tat i always 1na follow my own ways than rather her own ways.Im sori syg bt i just feel so lost about myself.I cry n cry coz no 1 ever accpect who i am. N im sori if always hurt your feelings.Is my fault as your bf i let u dwn always. I hope i could understand u mre tis time round.Haiz i reali dont knw wat 2 do now i reali nid u im stress with wat im facin right nw...
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Monday, March 23, 2009
Hey guys!chak3x!hahax...
Yo people how are you 2day??hope u guys are having fun n a great day...
Well 2day was quite a bad n god day both in the middle. Hmm well i cant say much about 2day but 2day my Sayang Yana accompany me 2 my aunts house at somewhere ah cant say it. After that she follow me to fetch my nephew from his kindergarden school oppisite my block.
Hmm this day im quite havin a rough day actually with family,friends n of coz my sayang Yana no 1 else... But overall i did overcome with it most of all family n my sayang. I would like to say sorry to my behaviour this days syg. i Know from the very 1st time that i was in a bad mood i shouldnt have shown my bad mood towards u. I should have giving u mre love than ever but end up i blew it until showing my temper infront of u,at msn your calls n of coz your sms. im so so so sorry syg from the time i show my temper 2 u until today n sorry i didnt control my temper.I promiz from where i am right now i will try my very best 2 hold my temper at all cost.I cant let go of you syg. I reali2x love u from the bottom of my heart just tell me the truth what do you reali 1 me 2 show you how much i love u. I'll prove to you everything asalkn kte tk kn berpisah. Apape slh i terhadap u tgl maafkn syg... I love you so much n of coz miss u so much 24/7...
Muacks!
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9:09 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
Wah!Finally!!!!hahax....
Your guys wondering why i say finally...
The fact IS 2DAY I JUST MASTER NOT SAY MASTER LAH BUT KNW HOW 2 SWIM FINALLY!!!
Cause is already 5 years i didn't went for swimming and i forgotten how 2 swim the 1st time i went in the pool last month, i was afraid of drowning. So 2day i remembered it all. Thanx to nana and of coz my lovely SYG Yana that made me have self-confident n b brave 2 over come my fears now i remember how to swim. Thank you both of you. Sayang thank you for everything that you thought me. I may be being selfish don't wanna listen to you sometimes and this days we always quarrell of small matters n of coz i always upset with you but remember syg how far we are my heart is always on you no matter what i love you syg. And by the way just now at the swimming pool sorry i just went off to our bench n preparing all my stuff without tellin you cause the fact is i was jealous,you kept lookin AT this guy yang tak swimmin yang tengok kwn2x die drowning kt dlm pool. You stare at him all the way. Ya its my fault i was wrong doing that without telling you im so sorry k syg. How i was jealoUs just now i just kept quiet cause i know and understand that you love me so that wasnt a big issued once again i'm so sorry syg...
And i'm so sorry about this days i berbual kasar with you cause im having lots of probs ah at home so i very bad mood and TER-let off my anger at you i'm so so so sorry dear please forgive me i tul2x syg you...
IT WAS QUITE A TOUGH N TIRING DAY BUT OVERALL IT WAS WORTH IT. I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS DAY ALSO... THANX 2 THIS 2 GIRLS. NOW IM READY TO FACE MY FEARS LIKE MY UPCOMING NS...
WELL GUYS BLOG WITH YOU SOON TC ALL...PEACE yaw!
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Hey Yo!sori guys long time never update my blog,hahax kinda bz wit alot of stuff sori bout tat. Well im back from my horrible life 4 the past how manys mths my EXam studyin so hard for it now just waiting for the result next week on Monday so wish me luck
Hahax...
Well guys how are you guys???hope you are fine. Since it has been quite some times never share u guys about my stories so here i go...
IS been a wild n crazy life going throught alot of obstacles here and there ups and downs left and right bla bal bla...Sometimes lifes has been so upset,hurt,happy,dissapointed,stress, being hulimiated n so on. I dont know how 2 say it but is the fact each day n every new day you will fine new stuff 2 tink off can be bad or can be good. I was just hoping that everyday it could be a good stuff but eventually is the oppisite of me. But hey, now is time for me to relax 4 the time being since is my holiday for 1 month YEAH!hahax,happy for now but once starting school that is where my aims,my goals have 2 be achive no matter coz i wanna have a good life SUFFER NOW ENJOY LATER...
Hmm to much of about my life ha ?hahax...
Now lets talk about my personal things that is not include my school stuffs...
Since is the holidays having a good time,hey hey hey...
LAST SATURDAY....
Sorry guys but i only remember this day only because it was a blast n happening day of my life with someone that i truly love IS YOU NUR ILLYANA...
WE met at 1pm then we to the IT show that was held at SUntec Convention HAll... Damn crowded i tell you that we went there for just 1 purpose, to buy PSP 8GB MEMORY STICK dam cheap man! Cost Only $33 cool man!hahax...
After that we went to the marina barriage N guess what it was the best moment of my life being with her...
Just look at this pix:
Above is the most favourite pix...hehex there is mre but this is the best pix...
We took lots of pic had great time alot...
SYG I FEEL GLAD HAVING U IN MY LIFE. I'M SO SO SORRY WHAT I HAVE DONE IN THE PAST TO MAKE YOU DISSAPOINTMENT,SAD HURT YOU N ETC. I HAVE TRUST IN YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I BELIEVED IN YOU ALOT. I FELT SO GULITY THAT EVERYTIME WE QUARRELL ALOT MY LIFE N HEART FEEL SO PAINFUL. I WISH THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP WILL LAST LONG 4EVER N EVER SYG. PLEASE BELIEVE ME THAT I REALLY2X LOVE YOU LOTS. THE 1ST TIME THAT I MET YOU WAS THE MOST VALUABLE DAY OF MY LIFE. YOU CHANGE MY WHOLE WORLD N MY WHOLE LIFE YOU STOP ME LOTS OF STUFF U MADE ME BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND U MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON,SYG PLEASE FORGIVE ME WHAT I HAVE DONE ALL THIS TIME N I WOULD TELL YOU U THIS I LOVE U SO MUCH NUR ILLYANA THANX FOR BEING IN MY LIFE ALL THIS TIME I HAD LOTS OF FUN BEING WITH YOU EVEN THOUGHT WE HAVING UPS N DOWNS. I APPRIETIATE YOU LOTS! MUACKS!
So guys hope to hook wit u guys soon so just tag me up,tc yaw c u guys soon n syg LOVE YOU MUACKS!
LOVE,
ALIF
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8:36 PM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Well is coming to the end of 2008,before 2008 ends n hello 2009 i would like 2 say sorry 2 all those people that i have made any wrong things 2wards your life. I'm very2x sorry. The past is the past let us continue with a new chapter in 2009 n that is 1 more day. Well i can sense it that 2009 will not be my year. There will be lots of problems coming up it surely do. But watever it is life still gonna move on right??? hahax... Well my love is always there 4 every1 like my family, friends, cousins n MOSTLY MY LOVE YANA, I LOVE U ALL N I LOVE U 2 SYG KUSH NUR ILLYANA. MUACKS!
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8:52 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Finally, she's back i miz her so much until i had the worse n sufferin 4 days. If not i almost had an accident at the roadside. But thanx god im fine. Well some say when any1 comes back from overseas their attitude change. Some change better some say change worse. But i truly how much she has done in Batam i know i could trust her but is just tat Im always thinkin stupid n negative about her. I just dont know why. Mayb my senses playin with me or mayb not. How much she has scariface 4 me i knw she's tryin her best 2 show her love 4 me n 4get bout the past. Mayb the past we wasnt ready 2 b 2gether but i know 1 day we could trust,love,care,concern n have FAITH 2wards each other. It may sounds crazy bout wat i wrote is onli the beginnin 4 us 4 our future. We shouldnt look back 4 the past. Now the present n the future is infront of us. Now lets us tink bout tat k syg. The bad is gone. The good is ther 4 us. Plz Yana show me how much u love me like how i sacriface alot 4 u.I LOVE YOU believe in me trust me n hav faith in me.....
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6:38 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Well day 2 without her n is a damn boring day 2day,haiz...I hope she's fine at Batam....
Hmm well i got a strange dream n is a nightmare of coz. Well cant tell you readers 2 much cause is a private thing. What i can tell is,in my dream she betrayed me,backstab me n of cause leave me. Cause there was a argument between me n her by choosin which 1 she choose,me or her groups? Cause i dont 2 much trust on her 1 of her friend is a gurl. Hmm since yesterday until now i had a strange feeling that something goin no not with yana but with yana friend n tats the gurl. Lets see how it goes 1st who knows is was onli a dream or mayb Not....
Hmm well i got a strange dream n is a nightmare of coz. Well cant tell you readers 2 much cause is a private thing. What i can tell is,in my dream she betrayed me,backstab me n of cause leave me. Cause there was a argument between me n her by choosin which 1 she choose,me or her groups?
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8:50 PM